Finding Motivation

I wish it was so easy as to open that email located in my spam file and find that I have actually really won that $5200 dollars that is waiting on me in some bank account somewhere out there in never land.  Or even that I really did have a rich uncle that passed away in a country in Africa and they had been searching for me so that I could inherit it properly.  Who knew I had a rich aunt that lived in India and recently passed away. I would have loved to know her in person. How sad to find out in a spam message that she existed somewhere far out over the ocean, many miles away.

And if I were a man all that medication for enhancements that I have won over the years would great to open my own store with and be able to resell.  And those watches, they have to be extremely beautiful.

I would be rich right now and I would not need to find the motivation to get up in the morning to head to work.  I could lie around in my pajamas all day and dream of exotic places to travel.  Maybe I could go back to Italy and visit the town where I was married, or even spend a really long weekend on my own private island.  Alas, those emails are just that emails filled with spam that benefits no one.  Not even the nuts that create them.

Lucky for me, I really love my job so don’t have to motivate myself too much to head to work.  The only time I have to do that is when I am feeling ill and really truly don’t want to leave my bed.

I am finding that I am procrastinating right now.  I am working on the second book in my Gemma series and it is taking me longer than I thought to actually get the pictures down on paper.  I find myself thinking I need to work on my drawings and then I intentionally find something else to do.  There’s a new book to read or a game on Facebook that is calling my name.  I am not feeling motivated.

Maybe it is this waiting game I am in.  I am still waiting on my Library of Congress Copyright Certification and I am still waiting to hear back from the publisher I submitted my book too.  While I wait I find that my mind is playing that what if game over and over again.  What if they never received it?  What if they don’t like it?  What if they do like it?  What if ….? and you fill in the blank.

So to avoid what is not motivating me, I am writing here once again.  Dear sweet Uncle/Aunt in a foreign country. Thank you for thinking of me in your last will.  I do wish that you really were real, then I could publish my book myself and not wait on that acceptance/denial letter.


5 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. tric
    Dec 09, 2015 @ 17:49:42

    Oh wow so the book is gone. Is this your biography or your children s story? Well done. We were talking about agents online recently and a couple of the authors were remembering the fact that some publishers rejected them, including one who is signed up and in the process of writing her fifth book for them.
    So here’s hoping you are snapped up, but don’t forget there is more than one publisher out there.
    Keep me posted.

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  2. Eve Messenger
    Dec 06, 2015 @ 21:58:28

    This is funny! Funny, and a little sad because you’re not feeling motivated. Here’s to getting your mojo back soon.



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